It's true - the time has come for me to face the absolute hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life - manage my life. On the surface this may sound simple - and most folks would think that I do this rather well. The part that is true is that I have come so far in my life. By all statistics, I should have had about five kids, married some alcoholic, and stayed in poverty my whole life - but that was my parent's life. I have had so many experiences, some really hard ones for sure. I've studied for years, sit in many a therapist's office, sat before many a committee, processed my life to the ends - all to bring me to this point in my life. Now it is time to face the deepest parts of my soul, those parts that feel entitled to live a particular way, as if there is an endless supply of food and money and no consequences to eating what I want when I want it or spending how ever much I want when I want. It's true that these patterns are grounded in wounded deprivational places - but how long do I need to hang on to these friends? So, I am now embarking upon a journey of health and wealth. This means losing weight and debt - both addictions have managed my life for way too long.
Managing one's life takes intention, stamina, common sense, boundaries of self, support, truth, and humility. Please send prayers my way as I integrate new behaviors, a new life style, a new me!!!
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